Well, I guess my High from Tim's party, Cardiff and my first day of work has worn off.......
I've just kind of realised that you're all off to uni soon, leaving me on my own :/ which sucks ass if I'm honest, and I'm gonna miss you all more than I'd like to admit.....Frankly I've only actually met ONE other person my age at my job, she's lovely and all, but it feels a little sad that I get on better with the 30-40 year old men than I get on with her :(
So yeah, I'm massively miserable, plus I've sort of done a u-turn on the path I wanna take with my life recently, and thats got me confused too :-s
I'm really enjoying work, and I do have an absolutely AWESOME job by any standards, I think I'll be pretty good at it, and the team I'm in is suportive, but I already feel like I'm getting too comfortable, a very bad thing, I am dead set on going to uni in a different country at some point in the future, but I'm no longer seeing a rush, and I'm starting to be less sure about canada for 6 months.......for a start, it's looking as though getting the visa is gonna be almost impossible, because there is apparently a huge list of people wanting one in december, this has really gotten me down and I'm kinda wishing they hadn't told me now :/
However, payday on the 3rd of Sept, so something to look forward to at least, unless I spend it all then end up feeling guilty for it haha
Thanks for reading x
PS I wish I was going to Reading, I'm jealous of all you lucky buggers -_-
Tuesday, 24 August 2010
Friday, 20 August 2010
Results
Surprised no one's blogged about this yet.....but I supposed many people are still unconcious from Tim's awesomely awesome party XD
Well, I was dissapointed to be honest, everyone said I shouldn't have been, and I can see their point, BBCC isn't a bad set of grades to get in Biol, chem, phys and Welsh, but in my mind I just know I'm capable of better so I was upset with them. I did do a good job of hiding this at results lol but my mum will tell you I was one hell of a state when I got home.
My main issue is, I can't really go through the rest of my life saying, 'oh I got this this and this, but it was BECAUSE I was really ill/grandma died/sister was in hospital/broke up with alan/was scared to go to school/had bronchitis/glandular fever' for the rest of my life, the list of reasons is extensive, and I suppose they're justified, but I'm not gonna list them every time someone asks me what I got, it just feel like I'm trying to excuse what I see as my own personal failure :( So yeah, it sucks
On the brighter side, I worked it all out and I am only 1 point from an A in biology, so maybe I'll just re-sit a module, then I'll be thrilled with my results :) I was chuffed to bits with my C in physics, although I think maybe the examiner was drunk when they marked it.....
So now I guess I have a million choices to make, I've spent a lot of the time I've been concious today researching things. If I'm honest, I'm not really sure I want to go straight into medicine anymore, because although medicine is where I'd like to end up, I'm not sure what field of medicine I want to go into, plus my real passion at the moment is Biology and I'd quite like to do a degree in that and do some research papers before I go into specialisng, I want to work on cancer research and cures for AIDs, something worthwhile, not just being stuck in a local hospital doing dreary day to day tasks, from what I experienced of it, only surgeons have any real fun, and I'm just not brave enough or clever enough to be one haha
The basic sort of plan I've worked out in my head so far is I want to go to canada/america to study, I found a lovely uni in Hawaii that looks quite good :) and I want to study Biology, preferably Human. From there, I'm not really positive, I want to go into nursing, and sepcialise in paedeatrics, then perhaps go on to do a nurse practitioner's course so I can end up a doctor like originally planned, sure it's the long way round, but being in medicine for me has always been about the people I help rather than the job itself and the prestige surrounding it.
Another thing I revisited today, which I haven't thought about in aaaaages, is how much I'd still quite like to be a vet, the zoology courses in American Universities are really interesting....and if I'm honest, I quite fancy going to Australia and doing zoology there and then working in a big zoo with loads of awesome animals :)
All in all, I know I don't have a plan right now, but thats fine, because I like the way things are going, I'm having loads of fun, I am so immensely proud of all my friends who've gotten into university, you all deserve it, I'm bloody terrified of you all leaving and I'm gonna miss you like crazy, but visiting you all will give me something to do :) I start work on monday, start earning money XD can't wait, hopefully I'll meet some lovely new people :)
So good luck to everyone with whatever it is you're doing, I'll be sorry to see you go, but happy for you :)
Oh, and Tim's party.......FRIGGING EPIC NIGHT :) made all the better by the complete lack of drama. The hangover however was definitely not as fun haha I'm off to post the photos on facebook now haha
Ciao! xx
Well, I was dissapointed to be honest, everyone said I shouldn't have been, and I can see their point, BBCC isn't a bad set of grades to get in Biol, chem, phys and Welsh, but in my mind I just know I'm capable of better so I was upset with them. I did do a good job of hiding this at results lol but my mum will tell you I was one hell of a state when I got home.
My main issue is, I can't really go through the rest of my life saying, 'oh I got this this and this, but it was BECAUSE I was really ill/grandma died/sister was in hospital/broke up with alan/was scared to go to school/had bronchitis/glandular fever' for the rest of my life, the list of reasons is extensive, and I suppose they're justified, but I'm not gonna list them every time someone asks me what I got, it just feel like I'm trying to excuse what I see as my own personal failure :( So yeah, it sucks
On the brighter side, I worked it all out and I am only 1 point from an A in biology, so maybe I'll just re-sit a module, then I'll be thrilled with my results :) I was chuffed to bits with my C in physics, although I think maybe the examiner was drunk when they marked it.....
So now I guess I have a million choices to make, I've spent a lot of the time I've been concious today researching things. If I'm honest, I'm not really sure I want to go straight into medicine anymore, because although medicine is where I'd like to end up, I'm not sure what field of medicine I want to go into, plus my real passion at the moment is Biology and I'd quite like to do a degree in that and do some research papers before I go into specialisng, I want to work on cancer research and cures for AIDs, something worthwhile, not just being stuck in a local hospital doing dreary day to day tasks, from what I experienced of it, only surgeons have any real fun, and I'm just not brave enough or clever enough to be one haha
The basic sort of plan I've worked out in my head so far is I want to go to canada/america to study, I found a lovely uni in Hawaii that looks quite good :) and I want to study Biology, preferably Human. From there, I'm not really positive, I want to go into nursing, and sepcialise in paedeatrics, then perhaps go on to do a nurse practitioner's course so I can end up a doctor like originally planned, sure it's the long way round, but being in medicine for me has always been about the people I help rather than the job itself and the prestige surrounding it.
Another thing I revisited today, which I haven't thought about in aaaaages, is how much I'd still quite like to be a vet, the zoology courses in American Universities are really interesting....and if I'm honest, I quite fancy going to Australia and doing zoology there and then working in a big zoo with loads of awesome animals :)
All in all, I know I don't have a plan right now, but thats fine, because I like the way things are going, I'm having loads of fun, I am so immensely proud of all my friends who've gotten into university, you all deserve it, I'm bloody terrified of you all leaving and I'm gonna miss you like crazy, but visiting you all will give me something to do :) I start work on monday, start earning money XD can't wait, hopefully I'll meet some lovely new people :)
So good luck to everyone with whatever it is you're doing, I'll be sorry to see you go, but happy for you :)
Oh, and Tim's party.......FRIGGING EPIC NIGHT :) made all the better by the complete lack of drama. The hangover however was definitely not as fun haha I'm off to post the photos on facebook now haha
Ciao! xx
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